However, I arrived so quickly that they had trouble locating it. While they searched, I picked up a few more books making my final selection three books about blogging and one fiction novel.
Librarian: You starting a blog?She gave me quite the look, like perhaps I was from the moon. Finally, she recovered.
me: I already have one.
Librarian: Oh, then why all the books?
me: I'm working towards world domination.
Librarian: I saw Julie & Julia this weekend, the movie about the lady with the cooking blog.Why is it that our dreams make people uncomfortable? That kind of skepticism is what's kept me from pursuing so many of my dreams.
me: Exactly! If she can have a movie, why not me?
Librarian: Have a nice day.
So what if the odds are stacked against us? So what if chances are slim we'll make it? Shouldn't we at least go down trying at something that interests us instead of playing it safe?
I wanted a career in marketing or public relations or writing. Instead, I let myself be talked into the safe bet - computer science. Results? A well-paying job that I dislike and it sucks my soul. A feeling that I missed out on something I should've at least tried at before admitting defeat.
All of my life, people have looked at me the same way as that librarian. People who should believe in me instead of contemplating a call to the guys in the white coats while willing me to pick the sensible route, choose the sure thing.
I'm tired of it. Screw that. I've gone that road for the last 10 years and I've had enough. Hence the recent brainstorming and talk of original ideas. I may fail but I'm going to at least to try to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. I'm going to make an attempt.
And you can all either laugh when I fall on my face or tell people you "knew me back when" when you see me rolling my eyes at Kathie Lee behind her back on Today.